insignificant

So now that summer is officially over I'm currently battling with this feeling of having no direction in my life. I just feel like I'm selling myself short and can't d a thing about it. The carefree lifestyle that I was living during the summer is cool and all but I'd gladly trade it in for a single constructive thing to do.

There must be more to life then being really really extremely goodlooking and I intend on finding out what that is.

realization

Well looking back at the last blog post I made it occured to me that it was posted on September 11th. Now honestly I had no idea nor what it on my mind at the time which has me torn into the following:

a. should I be disgusted that it wasn't mentioned or even in my mind at the time of the blog

OR

b. thankful that it was momentarily out of my head as that might mean that people are ready to move on (but never ever) forget the events that took place 8 years ago.

(little) Dilemmas like this take place in my head frequently, maybe I should start to share with the 3 people that read this. Though I will admit that I was happy to see a comment on the last entry.

personally

I'd love to know where all my womanizing as of late is coming from. I dont know if its the fact that I have a real girlfriend right now (who adores me by the way), if its my boyishly good looks (which i'd love to think that it is), or what. Maybe its the company I keep finally getting to me. I've always been the faithful one, but maybe depriving myself of that is what messed me up. I dont want to end up like another adult that I know who (I personally believe) never really experienced a girl that has relationship potential and just latch on because its something new and exciting. Because that would be sad.